Losing my marbles in Japan.
Here is an email I wrote to my ex-girlfriend one day while freaking out in Japan.

Yup ive pretty much been psychotic as of late. I am working really hard, I cannot fucking hang, 40 hours a week. Fuck I hate full time work. The money is ok. I have been surfing more now that typhoon season is swinging in, getting in the water a couple times a week. So this girl is totally under my skin, she is this japanese girl who works at my school, she is bilingual (kind of) her english is pretty good. I think she is a total fucking game player though. I don't know. Girls here are fucking nuts. It's like hanging out with 13 year olds all the time. Except their 25 and they still LOVE FUCKING HELLO KITTY!!! what they fuck is the deal with HELLO FUCKING KITTY!! or MICKEY FUCKING MOUSE!!! JESUS CHRIST GET OVER IT ALL READY!!! FUCK!!! I think the problem is most Japanese women live at home until their married or something and they never have done any drugs (well most of them) and everything has too be "pretty" or "cute". Like you buy a fucking soda and it has to have a pretty picture of a cat petting a rabbit or some shit. The bottle itself can't even be normal it will be shaped like a an hourglass or something! fucking Japan is outta control, I can't believe these people are the 3rd largest economy in the WORLD sometimes I feel like I am living in a nation of children. Anyways So this chick is fucking wrecking me, but why should I care I don't know why maybe cuz I see her everyday. Drives me fucking mad. When I don't go out with her on her day off she passive-aggressively punishes me by going out with another teacher. But what can I say she knows I date other girls or whatever, its just a big fucking headache at this point. I want to run to the hills sometime. This city shit isn't me. So now that ive dumped the badnews everything else is OK. I am still sober and sucking air. I still like living in Japan although I have days where I look around and wonder what the fuck I am doing in Japan. My Japanese has gotten a lot better I have been studying quite a bit so I am making some progress. I am saving some $$$ and might even hop jobs. I have talked to Jodie, mels old girlfriend, a couple of times she lives in Nagano about 4 hours from me so maybe I will go visit her. She said I could come and stay anytime, I think next month I will go. Hope all is well with you this probably seems more like a dump then anything else. Oh as far as reg. for the site goes it's $18 for 2 years. I haven't checked the other domain but will do that when I have a chance. Ok ttly ryan